Jealous Guy

Sometimes, it does the soul good to just analyze a song that for some reason will not escape your mind, leave your thoughts, or disappear from your dreams. I have just recently (last year) became a fan of The Beatles, yes I understand how sad and unfortunate this is. Regardless, I have fallen in love. I auditioned for American Idol when I was on vacation in New Orleans, LA. I did it as a dare on the way home from drinking. I could barely walk when I went in and sang for people I didn't know. They asked me to come back. I did. I went through a few auditions...mind you drunk for every one of them as I was at Southern Decadence (Gay Madri Gras). I think the ONLY sober moment was when i went to see Trent Reznor's house in the Garden District. I remember there being mail in his mailbox that I KNEW was the new album, and I really wanted to steal it....but my morals are much better than that, so I left it, and waited patiently for the new album as I should have....which was 'With Teeth". However, Im digressing. I ended up getting the Golden Ticket. I never went. I havent even watched American Idol since the first season, but this season I got a wild hair up my ass, and I decided to watch, and I have watched from the first show.

Until two weeks ago, I wanted Crystal Bowersox to win. I still do, I think, unless she can get a better record deal without winning like Adam Lambert. Still, although Crystal is and remains my favorite contestant.....Casey James caught me in a big way when it was Beatles week. Casey sang a John Lennon song I have never heard before called "Jealous Guy". The emotions in that song brought me to tears, which is somewhat difficult to do. I have been in love with the song since then, and I listen to it daily. Ironically, the lyrics fit into my life one week later exactly. I have a performance coming up...and I am thinking I am going to do this song.

Jealous Guy
John Lennon

I was dreaming of the past
And my heart was beating fast
I began to lose control
I began to lose control

I didn't mean to hurt you
I'm sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you
I'm just a jealous guy

I was feeling insecure
You might not love me anymore
I was shivering inside
I was shivering inside

I didn't mean to hurt you
I'm sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you
I'm just a jealous guy

I didn't mean to hurt you
I'm sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you
I'm just a jealous guy

I was trying to catch your eyes
Thought that you was trying to hide
I was swallowing my pain
I was swallowing my pain

I didn't mean to hurt you
I'm sorry that I made you cry
Oh no, I didn't want to hurt you
I'm just a jealous guy, watch out
I'm just a jealous guy, look out babe
I'm just a jealous guy



This song has stolen my heart.

Pictures of Trent Reznor's House in New Orleans, LA. However, he no longer lives here.